Granddaddy, Long Legs
“Important encounters are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other.” -Paulo Coelho
I want to start by admitting, while it might have felt selfish, when I wasn’t around as much I did honestly have worries that Emma would forget me. I didn’t want Emma to forget me, she was a rad ass girl!
And within that worry, I was unknowingly being dismissive of the roles we’d signed up for in this current life.
What I failed to remind myself is that between us existed a soul contract, a granddaddy of one that I still don’t believe I’ve scratched the surface on. And for that, we always would know each other and she proved that to me time and time again.
You see, when each of us first contract our life and those who will be the supporting characters, those initial influences we have decided upon -that is what will determine patterns of learned behavior that will in fact create wounds for the purpose of a later healing. Those wounds and learned behaviors will lead us to other people we have soul contracts with and they will undoubtably teach us about ourselves. Now, if we choose to be open, there is vast learning to embrace in this as it is how we awaken and begin the path to our authentic self.
I know I feel like I’m talking about Emma a lot, and more so than I did in the most recent years while she was still with her physical body -but hear me out, there is still so much to learn and I’m doing my best to honor her purpose which is still very much alive.
It is almost as if there is a new receiving of information at an extraordinary rate. Not forgetting the pain, but showing up embracing and honoring it. We are gifted these experiences so we can in fact change the world.
It’s difficult to put into words the heart ache and heart fullness that I’m feeling simultaneously. And while it can not compare to Emma’s Mommy, Daddy, Sissy and her closest family, I just know that so much of who I am today, and who I’m yet to be is in large part because of that contract with Emma. And what a blessing! The honor it has been to be even any part of her life is something I will show up for the rest of mine, leading with my heart, full.
I’ve found so much comfort lately, it still comes and goes and still with big emotions and tears. With Emma I am always finding a new level of gratitude and feeling of privilege to be where I am today, pursuing each day a new journey that is part of my life’s work.
As I was cleaning up my office and in finding a place for our picture, my only thought was to have her near me as I work to keep drawing on that inspiration with the reminder of that pure feeling of joy. And, when I logged into my first Zoom call after rearranging my office, there I saw Emma over my shoulder. Now for every Zoom class or call with a client -without planning it, there she is right with me!
She is my reminder to find grounding.
She is my reminder it doesn’t have to be perfect.
She is my reminder to embody and show up as, and honoring, my authentic self.
As I channel from source, continuing to learn the purpose not even about me but in fact working through me, this rad ass chick is still hanging out in this contractual space that is our soul work.
Take good care, travel safe
Samantha
I'll never stop telling people about you, I don't know what it looks like but this was the beginning of something grand!
I never dreamed I'd write a Eulogy, I never dreamed it would be yours -but it was a great honor and now a gift for Mommy, Daddy and Meme.
